Wednesday, February 3, 2016

I'll Take This Victory.

Some days, I feel awesome, like I can take on the world and win. Other days, it's as if the universe is conspiring against me and I've failed at everything before I even begin.

And that's the reality of life. There will always be tough days. But even a bad day can have bright spots. And if you can't find one, make one.

Today, my great moment came as I finished today's Sunrise 5k. I had set a goal, met it, and even slightly exceeded it. So no matter what else comes my way today, this victory is mine to celebrate all day long.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Running? What running?

This has not been a good year for me as a runner. Once again, I've let the craziness of the real world distract me from taking care of my health.

I have a Ragnar Relay in three weeks. And a full marathon two weeks after that. I don't feel trained for either event.

Candidly, I need to get my shit together. This is a bad situation that continues to get worse.

This coming Thursday, I leave town for a ten day mental-health vacation. And I fully expect my calorie intake will be high as I eat and drink my way across the country.

Oddly enough, I'm okay with that. I need to focus on my heart and soul right now. When I return on the 31st of January, I'll make physical fitness a priority.

But, that isn't to say that the next ten days will be a free-for-all. Healthy eating won't be my primary goal, but I will work to make smarter choices when the opportunities arise.

If it all sounds rather muddled and unclear, then you are reading it correctly. I'm not sure exactly how this trip is going to go. But I will do what I can, when I can, and deal with the consequences when I get back.

Healthy living and fitness is a lifelong journey. And sometimes, there will be necessary detours along the way. This is one of them. 

Monday, December 14, 2015

I'm not okay.

I'm having a tough time right now. Instead of feeling the holiday spirit, I'm feeling the weight of obligations, expectations, and loss.

It's not a good place to me. Each day, the pressure and stress seem to pile on, and soon enough I'll snap.

And that's not good at all.

But I don't need to struggle with this by myself. I have access to professional help and I'd be a fool to not take advantage of that.

This morning, I made an appointment to see a therapist next week. He is the same person I talked with last summer when I was going through a similar difficult time, and I think that seeing him again will help me clear my head.

There is no shame in knowing that you need help and being smart enough to get it.