Thursday, November 19, 2009

Unrelenting Venting

I worry.

I worry that if I'm silent, my friends will be concerned at my change in behavior.

I worry that if I act like everything is fine, my friends will see through me.

I worry that if I talk about what is bothering me, my friends will feel responsible for helping me.

I worry that if I don't talk about what is bothering me, I'll miss out on good advice and much needed perspective.

I worry that if don't deal with the little things, they will seem to grow to big things and overwhelm me.

I worry that venting like this in an electronic fashion obligates my friends to respond.

I worry that such obligations quickly breed resentment and disapproval.

I worry that all this worrying is bad for me.